Sometimes at night, when I look to the sky,
I start thinking of you and then ask myself, why?
Why do I love you? I think and smile,
because I know the list could run on for miles.
The whisper of your voice, the warmth of your touch,
so many little things that make me love you so much.
The way you support me, and help with my emotions,
the way that you care and show such devotion.
The way that your kiss, fills me with desire,
and how you hold me with the warmth of a blazing fire.
The way your eyes shine when you look at me,
lost with you forever is where I want to be.
The way that I feel when you're by my side,
a sense of completion and overflowing pride.
The dreams that I dream, that all involve you,
the possibilities I see and the things we can do.
How you finish the puzzle that lies inside my heart,
how that deep in my soul, you are the most important part.
I could go on for days, telling of what I feel,
but all you really must know is my love for you is real
-angela*
seventeen
260888
emotional
indecisive
stubborn
alwaes daedreamin
and i love my hubby jason!
Devil vs Angel *
Sunday, July 24, 2005
9:21:00 pm
i just duno wat to sae.bt i reali dont feel gd inside.is nt easy to spill it out.i wonder how long does this feeling last? im out of my mind soon...can i take it? im juz afraid..im nt thinking too much or wat.im juz living dae by dae.looking happy,smiley and always trying to do wat i suppose to do.have i ever try making things better? tink of ways to improve? right nw, i juz feel reali very bad inside.
Devil vs Angel *
Tuesday, July 19, 2005
11:09:00 pm
todae been a boriiinng dae for meee~ im like a guai gal lately.go home so early.parents quite satisfied wit my results.bt they din anything much.maths i got 87/100..ckt55/100..expect to fail..thank God i pass..tcs paper 1- 16.5/25..im juz bad at my language.bt at least it is nt one of the main sub.im always broke and im spending money like water.everytime i save it will be gone in a few days.and im trying to be as good as possible.though sometimes i din reali study.i reali shld start studying like term 1 le.now i know nuts abt everything.calvin sae my life like so interesting and fun..bt to me, i feel tt im doing the same thing or mayb one or 2 special things.wat is the purpose? why am i here for? where is my faith? my sis help me borrowed a book: i kissed dating goodbye..she wan me to understand abt dating and getting back to God.he nv forbades us to date as long as is nt sth he is nt happy with..it is sth tt i heard last time.
sch have started.i wonder wat the upcoming problems.i dun wanna anything to happen.but i juz gt this feeling tt it gonna begin soon.i may nt sae anything or wat.bt inside im juz thinking though i dun reali take it to heart abt it.yes..im being careful.aftall hu wld wan a bad one.there's disadvantage and advantage abt everything.ups and downs.hey..tt's makes life beautiful and wonderful and joyful ppl ard u.wun life be boring if everything is so perfect and predictable.bt human beings are nv satisfied with wat they have, everything must be the best.until they taste sth bitter den they come to cherish wat they have.sigh~
im gonna pay my dance fees tmr...heard tt is first come first serve.check it out at one stop service.had to walk thru the nt so shelter bridge..oh my..im freezing the whole dae.till now, i still feel kinda cold.*ouch* my stomach hurts again...oh ya.back to dance.for beginners out of 100 plus they onli wan 85..nt sure abt advance.tt dae check list quite short.todae at one stop service quite long..wth..wat is the audition for man? bt think if tmr i pay shld be alright..this thurs first lesson.and im so blur thinking 6-7.30 is shorter wen both is 1 and half hr..think im gonna wash up and slp..missing my darlingkin badly=(
Devil vs Angel *
Monday, July 18, 2005
11:21:00 pm
im bored so im back!! cannot access to ole psps..can go in awhile onli..grr..irritating..anywae im glad to announce im in modern dance in tp le.and best of all im in the advance grp..*yipee* bt wat i fear most is the warm up..tt part im sure dead..*pulls out all my hair* dun worry..im nt doing it.i nit to pay 30 bucks for 8 lessons.is every thurs...7.30-9pm..as for beginners is 6-7.30..so short and early..nvm..finally can dance!! shake ya body gal!! okie..think im mad todae..though im quite tired.i gt back 2 of my term test papers..quite happy wit me..for digital fundamental i got 42/50..internet and computer fundamental i got 44/50..*clap clap* ..tmr think will be a sad dae for me..getting back my maths and ckt..urh.. guess i will flunk ckt..and hope my maths dun disappoint me..*twist finger*..think i better turn in and wait for tt slowpoke's msg...
Devil vs Angel *
heyax!!!!! suppose to be a long post bt im quite lazy so mayb i sum it up and put pictures!! tots are swirling in my head now and den bt juz plain lazy..oh..i had a happy one week holiday!! everything was alright..went shopping wit aquilah on wed..think tok and walk more den browsing on things.thurs is my class outing at sentosa..it was great.find out frm the pic instead..
took it for fun=p
me and aquilah
aquilah and me!
me huggin the tree! wonder wat the heck am i doing?
my class gals!!i mean locals!!
me, aquilah and janice
the future business woman!! see how siti happy smiling abt her wonderful idea=)
faizil wit the red towel and me..oh ya..and he thinks is nice cuz makes him looks like gt long hair..wahaha..
me, aquilah and fauzi..always acting cool wit the sunglasses
clouds there.
faizil, aquilah and half me!!
peacock..oh ya..me and mei zhen took a few shots..keep chasing it until we off the beach..
pecking on sand?
gals' shadows!! wonder whose leg is tt?
fauzi acting cool on a big first S of siloso
ben wit his trademark 'hi' sign on the last S of siloso
me, siti and aquilah!!
me, act cute aquilah and janice!!oops..she gonna kill me..
that's all..still gt a few more..lazy to put it up..din manage to take the guys..this shows tt i din go boy-looking tt dae..heez=) next is my secondary sch art's nite..oh my..i nv attend any b4..cuz im on the stage instead.dancing!!lalala..it might nt be as gd as other sch bt to me..i think they did improved alot and like a sense of achievement.recalling how past years behind the stage scene brings back happy memories..ok enuff of tt.describe the nite next time.catch up and met alot of frenz..oh..all seems to change..din manage to take pictures of the event bt ourselves..
serene and me!!
puay shian and try to be jay chou de chicken!!
ying ru and shuai cher...*er..did i sae sth wrongly*
cher,me and wan ting
act cute pose
act cool..bt think i failed
the gals!!
2 cute gals!! juliana and serene
me,chicken,tortise,shark and wan ting...oh my..i see lots of chopper aft me!!
Devil vs Angel *
Saturday, July 09, 2005
4:11:00 am
pls take a gun and shoot me down!
Devil vs Angel *
Friday, July 08, 2005
4:50:00 pm
yeah!!!todae is my last paper.still alright..and im so stupid, forget there's a formula bk for me to refer and im wasting my time trying to think of the rite one..its alright..take it easy..its over...later shall treat myself to some catching up wit my pals ..cant wait to meet cher,jas and lena..woohoo!! todae i dress until so casual to sch..wit a cap and like so awkward.wahaha...the stupid bus driver scare me out of my wits..wwanna check my e=zlink card and wat tp cannot use it..blah blah..heck..guess i shld activate poly card le.play safe..bt its like alot of difference btw the price..and i juz took the survey abt transportation for tpjc...
this is the results for the iq test i took..wahaha...bored...
think time for me to get dress and out...mummy nt at home tonite..closer and more open to my mum now..yeah!!love her to bits..next week term break for me..nit to design some web..oh boi..html codes again...argh..nit to take pics too..self-obsession time!! heez=) juz kidding`
yesterdae is jason and me half year anniversary..oh..time reali can be fast and slow ar..went to eat.was so surprised wen he pass me the box..wow..thank you dear! so happy to noe him.. =))
Devil vs Angel *
Tuesday, July 05, 2005
12:36:00 am
wat's wrong wit me todae?!? is one of those very unusual bad days..one of those days tt i wanna cry to slp..im feeling out of control..save me!!! i dun wanna be liek this..sry dear for treating u like tt..pls forgive me!
Devil vs Angel *
Monday, July 04, 2005
11:19:00 pm
aiyo....my blog is like so plain..think im sick of it.nit a change.any ideas wat to do?
Devil vs Angel *
sigh..sometimes i wonder wat's goin on.i recieve all sorts of comments, opinions and all sorts of different stuffs. i duno wat's da problem juz feeling abit insecure..wat if this or that happens and this and that...sometimes i feel that im dirfting awae frm the crowd or even the closest person in my life.like anything can happen. i wonder wat will happen to me if im stranded on a deserted island.this week is my term test.todae is my digi fundamentals paper.it was quite alright but gt quite a few mistakes tt i shldnt be making so i lose abt 14 points.sniff..tmr is some com paper.oh my..think im gonna flung tt paper.i haven reali sit dwn and study tt.mayb the most i can score in the html section.thanx to doing and adjusting my blog template.now im trying to look at things wit different angles and end up wit so many answer.sigh.heck.wat im suppose to do.im so lost at times bt nt noeing wat's went wrong.
todae while in da bus, flashes of past flew crossed my head.certain songs remind me of different ppl.sometimes i wonder wat kind of person am i.i like appear differently to different ppl.im nt a hypocrite.as in im so mad or retareded to certain ppl or i appear as a thinking person.aiya.todae tok to aquilah online and in person.think certain things are beyong our control and there's a reason for everything.for now i think there's wrong or right.everything happens for a reason.so now we shld try to prevent it.sigh.i duno wat nonsense am i toking.