Sometimes at night, when I look to the sky,
I start thinking of you and then ask myself, why?
Why do I love you? I think and smile,
because I know the list could run on for miles.
The whisper of your voice, the warmth of your touch,
so many little things that make me love you so much.
The way you support me, and help with my emotions,
the way that you care and show such devotion.
The way that your kiss, fills me with desire,
and how you hold me with the warmth of a blazing fire.
The way your eyes shine when you look at me,
lost with you forever is where I want to be.
The way that I feel when you're by my side,
a sense of completion and overflowing pride.
The dreams that I dream, that all involve you,
the possibilities I see and the things we can do.
How you finish the puzzle that lies inside my heart,
how that deep in my soul, you are the most important part.
I could go on for days, telling of what I feel,
but all you really must know is my love for you is real
-angela*
seventeen
260888
emotional
indecisive
stubborn
alwaes daedreamin
and i love my hubby jason!
Devil vs Angel *
Thursday, April 21, 2005
2:19:00 pm
i been rotting and slacking at home.yesterdae finally went back to work.some things changed.so embarrassing.wen i step in to change my ic.the door couldnt open.the stupid security keep saying wat ask me dun mind calling me sweetheart and has to inform dem wen i sign in and out.i was out of my hse quite early and i reached there nearly on da dot.not much time to change lucky put my make up at home le.
'first' dae went back was quite an experience for me.is a vip event.some world gourmet summit thingy.they even hav differnt yr and brand of white wine to each different course.yesterdae gt food server.wine server and runner.we all have to act proffessional.i hav to noe a few table manners.lucky wen young my mummy taught me some.have to serve ladies first.and everything frm da right.we have to serve one by one and place a food wit a specific direction according to the decoration on da food and worst of all table by table.imagine all servers attack one table.everyting have to reset aft fourth course.the F and B director was there too.gt one interesting dish is where the prawns are cook in different wae and the chinese character of prawn was written wit the sauce.everything went well and grand.the manager observe some mistake.oh ya.have to serve clockwise direction.and even plain water all use bottle de.still water or sparkling water.and guess wat?? by the end of da dae.the manager said juz treat it as a rehearsal the main and biggest event is on fri wit 20 tables.10 pax and one table wit 12 pax.more stress den yesterdae wit 7 tables wit mixture of 7 to 9 pax and some din turn up.heard tt we may nit to wear white gloves too.the deco and table setting is magnificent too.the grapes and vines is spread in da centre.the grapes are big,sweet and seedless.sadly have to return.we took some to munch.bring a small bunch home.hehe.better hope i wun be wine server tmr.
i wonder why so many ppl like to treat love as a game.heard alot of problems and conflicts ard me.the worst of all is triangle love.all sorts of tots will creep into my mind.bt most importantly trust and communication is there.and be honest.yes.love cant be force and it can be selfish or selfless.anything can happen.therfore our feelings cannot be control.if u reali no choice and fallen for someone while u in a relationship.the best is to tell ya partner.dun keep him/her in da dark.it hurts dem more.of cuz da best is love each other as long as possible.bt does love at our age last.in marriage,it doesnt last a life time too.sure there's a period of time where ppl go astray or fool ard or feeling is nt there.some put career first.nt all ppl can tolerate all this.tt's wen we nit to adapt and be more understanding.and most important thing is commitment.tt's wat makes a marriage last.wat abt relationship? there is commitment too.bt nt to da extend tt hav to stay wit each other even ya hrt is nt there.some ppl sae u cant hold 2 person in one hrt.bt for me i believe some do.bt it depends on where u place the person.some ppl flirts and fools ard bt their hrt still wit their partner.the partner muz have a big and generous hrt.some is has a little crush on anoda person bt dunwan to break.wat cannot let go or se bu de li kai.familiar? is this wat u reali wan? leading anoda person on and hurting ya partner in silence.imagine one dae someone do tt to u.wat will u feel? if u reali loves someone u wun do tt.if it is because of the length of time ur been together it even worse.yes.its hard to let someone go aft ure been thru so much.bt leaving the person on a one sided love road brings more problems and pain.aiya.this kind of thing hard to comprehend and understand.im juz rattling nonsense.it starts wit a crush den wit like and love.bt slowly it isnt all abt love bt others too.u learn things in a relationship.develop different characters and everything can be appiled to ya daily life and ppl ard u.
okie.enuff of all those nonsense.thinking of writting abt depression bt guess i gt nt much tings to write and i gt no time.nit to leave in half hour time and i still haven bathe and prepare my things.okie.time to go.tata!!
