Sometimes at night, when I look to the sky,
I start thinking of you and then ask myself, why?
Why do I love you? I think and smile,
because I know the list could run on for miles.
The whisper of your voice, the warmth of your touch,
so many little things that make me love you so much.
The way you support me, and help with my emotions,
the way that you care and show such devotion.
The way that your kiss, fills me with desire,
and how you hold me with the warmth of a blazing fire.
The way your eyes shine when you look at me,
lost with you forever is where I want to be.
The way that I feel when you're by my side,
a sense of completion and overflowing pride.
The dreams that I dream, that all involve you,
the possibilities I see and the things we can do.
How you finish the puzzle that lies inside my heart,
how that deep in my soul, you are the most important part.
I could go on for days, telling of what I feel,
but all you really must know is my love for you is real
-angela*
seventeen
260888
emotional
indecisive
stubborn
alwaes daedreamin
and i love my hubby jason!
Devil vs Angel *
Sunday, April 24, 2005
9:31:00 pm
fridae's function juz anoda vip event.to me is nth important or special.juz like wed.life as usual.meeting elena,jas and cher on mon.*excited* cant wait to get together as 4 aft million thousand days.
i wonder how poly life will be? am i regretting anything abt leaving MI.anyway i submit all my forms and doing all neccessary things.now juz have to work towards it.fear tt i will turn bad in poly or watever.im nt da gal i seems to be.i find it hard to be normal or even myself.i find myself having many expectations.and i expect alot frm myself and others.isnt it unfair to others?
aft my dinner,wat my mum comments leave me in deep tots.am i reali doing tt? am i da girl in da past? have i changed? who and wat am i now? over da past few yrs, am i putting a mask in front of me?trying to be someone? jealous or envious of others? im so fortunate.bt why i expect more and everything.greedy angela! i put bad past behind.bringing onli memories wit me.juz some wonderful pages in my book of life.bt da main character isnt da same.it changes its role often.how often i tot of wat if i can turn back da time and redo somethings.i wouldnt have wat i have and be now.everything is so different.life wun be da same.everything happen for a reason.bt where's my reason.why am i behaving like this.im like writing rubbish and my head juz keep spinning wit lots of tots tt i dun understand.i juz feel like breaking dwn.i aint strong at all.im real weak inside.i appear to be understanding and noe things.and i think too highly of myself.im juz a bad plain angela.im nt trying to gain any sympathy or act weak for ppl to pity me.im juz writing nonsense.im sick of life and being perfect.why i so irresponsible at times.having big dreams bt nt turning dem to goals and real things.i feel da world so fake.nothing is true.
okie.i better stop thinking if nt all my hair turns white le.i have better things to worry and work towards it.no use changing back bt work towards the better=)