Sometimes at night, when I look to the sky,
I start thinking of you and then ask myself, why?
Why do I love you? I think and smile,
because I know the list could run on for miles.
The whisper of your voice, the warmth of your touch,
so many little things that make me love you so much.
The way you support me, and help with my emotions,
the way that you care and show such devotion.
The way that your kiss, fills me with desire,
and how you hold me with the warmth of a blazing fire.
The way your eyes shine when you look at me,
lost with you forever is where I want to be.
The way that I feel when you're by my side,
a sense of completion and overflowing pride.
The dreams that I dream, that all involve you,
the possibilities I see and the things we can do.
How you finish the puzzle that lies inside my heart,
how that deep in my soul, you are the most important part.
I could go on for days, telling of what I feel,
but all you really must know is my love for you is real
-angela*
seventeen
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emotional
indecisive
stubborn
alwaes daedreamin
and i love my hubby jason!
Devil vs Angel *
Thursday, April 29, 2004
11:02:00 pm
hmm...todae seems ok for me..watch 50 first dates..so funnie..and it was sweet too.aft he accompany me home..tt's was so nice..hehe..sweet of him..got a few mins bible study session wit mr lian.learn a few stuff..i mux learn to trust him wit my whole heart..and in watever i do mux put him in..so tt he will make my path straight.slow to anger.slow to speak..but listen..sigh..hate da world at times..anyway im part of it.mux understand da stress tt is going around.wonder being a prefect is a right thing not.watever it is.is my last year anyway..i come to serve God..sigh..realise my discipline pulls me down..tt is y i like everything so slack..even my classmates noe tt i dun hand in stuff..nvm..wanna prove to dem i can do it during o level..now still struggling wit everything..
Devil vs Angel *
Wednesday, April 28, 2004
11:57:00 pm
my head screeeeaaaming..wat happen..i changed..she complaining i shldnt use tt tone to tok to her..i din..watever.wat happen..argh...help me!
Devil vs Angel *
struggling!
Devil vs Angel *
Tuesday, April 20, 2004
11:16:00 pm
wat happen? i dun understand myself anymore..i changed..old.new.present? wat m i? i like lose interest in everything..issit i dun trust tt kind of creature anymore..alot of qns going round n round my head.my exams r drawing near yet i haven even touch anything wen i noe im da weakest.argh..i duno anything..i feel so bad..i noe wat is right n wrong yet im not doing da right thing..i always affect others by my mood..y m i so selfish..i changed..i feel ok..but i juz thinks like tt..i dun thinks much le..wat happen?i dun understand..im away frm da crowd.far far away.im in da dark dark world where no one hears me..forget it..i juz get on wit my life..i duno wat i wan either..
Devil vs Angel *
Sunday, April 18, 2004
1:45:00 pm
hmm..yesterday flag day and duno got wat stuff for some senior citizens thingy..haha.so funnie..i put my leg den Z.L accuse me of kicking his butt..haha..hmm...i partner ee wei den we went toa payoh for collection..at first no ppl..den we found a spot where most ppl passes by..so quite heavy..haha..we oso go ee wei's cousin shop to rest..got air con..haha..aft tt..went bugis..haha..boring place..haha..no choice..eat some jap lunchbox..forget wat it called.haha.den shop wit frenz for birthdae present..haha...we keep walking..so tired yesterday..share a present wit qx for ven.bought a lying down kitten..it look so real n it feels real too..haha.frm give a name shop.den bought a new billabong water bottle..it is nice..whole thing white wit purple flower n pink wording on it..haha..after tt went grandma's hse..go there stuff myself again..haha..it wasnt a good nite for me..haha..slightly later.the things my angel gave me all gone..some down my bro n maid stomach n some lost or wat..my sis dump all da things out of my bag den nv keep properly..hai..den think mood swing again..haha..now ok le..haha..muz forgive n forget..anyway thinks abt y some ppl do some stuff in da world..feel sad for da world though im part of it..sigh..todae my grandfather n relatives come my hse..so scary..slp until half say in half an hour time they come..haha..went market wit maid to help to carry stuff..haha..think todae gonna do sum hw n study..wish i got dicipline to do tt..haha.my bedroom reali is bedroom le..no more table to sudy..table moves to computer rm..now is study rm..haha..den got air con..haha..hmmm..i go eat my lunch le.haha..
Devil vs Angel *
Friday, April 16, 2004
11:40:00 pm
hmm..todae been a great for me..like alot of ppl so sweet to me..haha..this morning like ao many ppl attitude..first wit captain sha..he was like scolding practically everyone hu walk tt way..den jj is crazy..tt one even worse...tell him got latecomers...say so? find mr tan lahz...crazy..den zhong lao shi scold us selfish...now my mummy is too..haha..my sis even worse...make my mummy angry..wonder y my sis like tt..i angry or wat oso wun show tt person...cant take it den scold..haha..all da teachers attitude..think their pay been docked..haha..my angel gave me stuff...heard tt been there for few days le..wonder wat to give my mortal n how to give.haha..some more same duty..haha..so long le..he muz be waiting for his angel..haha.den my bro like so good to me..he gave me a kiss and a hug..haha..tml got cip thingy..flag day..wonder where to go..meeting for breakfast..haha..hmm..have to slp early tonitez..tml have to go grandma hse..hmm..my grandfather frm malaysia coming to singapore soon..yeah..though he dunwan to stay but is a good start..think he slowly let go abit..feel so sad for him..two years le..his love for my grandma nv dies..still cry for her..admire him so much..den he sometimes dun eat juz cry..hai..pray tt he'll be alright always..few days ago listen to one chinese song..toking abt a love story abt a grandma n grandda...so funnie..first hear ppl sing abt old ppl..haha..pft i like cheer alot of ppl...yeah..did i done a good job..haha..anyway not sure whether shld i aim for tt black t shirt..i like not qualified for it..hmm..think on mon aft a maths..i do da pec notice board..long time nv update le..nit to put community photos..and pec photos..haha..i nit to improve alot of stuffs..todae aft toking to him..i realise alot of stuff..learn sth...but forget le..haha..im always so blur...ermz...look not blur.haha..ppl always say i look blur..haha..whoa..this is long..nitez..
Devil vs Angel *
Thursday, April 15, 2004
11:51:00 pm
this afternoon incident scare me..wonder wat happen..can sense sth wrong le..anyway dun tok abt it..duno y..suddenly keep thinking abt it..hurts me.sigh..thinks everything alright le..anyway no aircon le.duno wat no hole thingy..haha..anyway got cooler instead..still nit to put in freezer sth in order to use.lolx..den got new cordless fone..panasonic wan..haha..wow..it is so ex..150 bucks.haha..think reception will be good..300m..can take to downstair le..lolx..like hp..anyway tonite 12am is one month anniversary..yeah..lolx..he muz be tired le..love him always..nitez
Devil vs Angel *
Wednesday, April 14, 2004
11:40:00 pm
haiz..think i fallen deeply in love le..cant get myself out ..love him more each dae..it hurts me wen i c him sad n i cant do anything to help..argh..wat happen to me..i still cant understand myself..i dun like my relative..is her own son turns bad..y come and say us..tell my mom we will sure turn bad wan..always come n suan us..luckily my mom not tt kind..i suddenly feel very fortunate..so many ppl caring for me around me..hmm...feeling better now..wonder shld i go for heart check up..feel like..but like waste money...love him lots..hehe..wonder how is my sis..she dun even tell me..hopes she tell someone else..is not tt good keeping inside..yeah..mummy gonna install anoda aircon in computer rm..she say as long as we bring hom good result..hope i dun disappoint her while she give us all the best she can gives...
Devil vs Angel *
isnt a good nite for me..i feel so stupid.i muz be da most idiot gal on earth..duno when to do wat n so on.i cant even control my feelings well..y i juz cant learn tt..i nit to control my mood too..i tot i learn tt last year..i dunwan all my past to return.wat's going on..wat's happening?argh..cant stand myself..always full of faults.i cant even help myself.i duno how to help n console him while i cant myself.im juz useless..forget it..i juz accept da fact tt im juz a gal hu is very very bad..alot alot of problems..
Devil vs Angel *
Tuesday, April 13, 2004
10:59:00 pm
sigh..sort of thinking of wat happen aft prefect meeting..dun care..i noe im in da wrong..i cant blame anyone n i cant pin point other mistakes while i make mistakes..todae like scenes of tt scary incidence occurred..duno y..juz feel like im haunted by it..though it is nth now.haha..dun care...nth much happen to me recently..accept being scolded for being late..fail my e maths..todae a maths paper was like onli noe 2 qns..all duno..chinese spelling onli noe abit..ahhh...choo..sneeze again..lolx.
Devil vs Angel *
Sunday, April 11, 2004
8:46:00 pm
hmm...forget wat i wanna write...anyway nth much happen..got flu..luckily now better le..hopes tml morning everything will be alright..and da same everyday..owe teachers hw..lolx..im damn lazy lehz..hai.. miss him so much..suddenly feel tt i love him alot..haha...im crazy..awhile think i scare i dun love as much as he do..now think i love him lots..haha..hai...hope we can be together as long as possible..recentlt found out tt got one guy like me..sommore my junior..haha..now become my mei because he thinks since we can be together.haha..sometimes say thinking of me..oh my..
Devil vs Angel *
Sometimes at night, when I look to the sky,
I start thinking of you and then ask myself, why?
Why do I love you? I think and smile,
because I know the list could run on for miles.
The whisper of your voice, the warmth of your touch,
so many little things that make me love you so much.
The way you support me, and help with my emotions,
the way that you care and show such devotion.
The way that your kiss, fills me with desire,
and how you hold me with the warmth of a blazing fire.
The way your eyes shine when you look at me,
lost with you forever is where I want to be.
The way that I feel when you're by my side,
a sense of completion and overflowing pride.
The dreams that I dream, that all involve you,
the possibilities I see and the things we can do.
How you finish the puzzle that lies inside my heart,
how that deep in my soul, you are the most important part.
I could go on for days, telling of what I feel,
but all you really must know is my love for you is real
Devil vs Angel *
Friday, April 09, 2004
11:34:00 pm
hmm...late le..going to slp soon..haha...keep thinking tt my blog not nice..like so plain..so empty..wanna change again..haha..and you..stop reading..lolx...invading my privacy..lolx..haha..i cant write much..lolx..muackz=p
Devil vs Angel *
todae my neighbour was telling my mummy abt how i look nicer lately because not as skinny as last time..fatter.haha...i've grown fat..lolx..of cuz..this year like eat alot..last year dun even eat during recess time..now is like eat until like very sianz..haha..im fat le..lolx..heck care...as long as im not too fat..den mayb must do more exercise.sis not back yet..mummy n bro go out buy com for cousin..hai..online so long..haven start any of my work..
Devil vs Angel *
todae is good fridae yet im stuck at home.sis go fren hse do project.sigh..poor her..cant even go bbq tt is near my hse.tml she go out..haha..mummy thinks im a good gal..always nv go out..haha..scold my sis for keep going out..haha..actually i got ask her tt i go bbq n so on wat..think mayb grow up le..lolx..a nice mummy to me.love her so much.i got lots of hw not done..oh my dear...is like so many tests this month..den got eng prelim oral..chinese o level is 31st of may...im dead...how to finish so many stuff in such a short time...den i always slack...hai..y i like tt..haha..my art project oso duno how..i like very very lazy..nv do anything..i want to get good results yet i nv put in effort..wahaha...think i shld use less of com.hp and stop slacking..i always dilly dally until very late le.lolx.
Devil vs Angel *
Sunday, April 04, 2004
10:49:00 pm
on sat wen during lunch..my frenz toking abt this particular fren.i din tok much..nv join their conversation.i have no comments.juz sms..aft tt..lydia was asking me y i so quiet..i was like nth to sae..i been frenz wit her like ages.bad times n good time i have wit her all still fresh in my memories.wen they tok abt wat she change n all her bad thingy..and how she count her frenz.oh my..im speechless.i think i juz treat her a my sis as in da sense watever she turned to i still treat her da same.my worse experience in friendship is have wit her.i learn my lesson.i cant understand some stuff.but juz put tt in da past n now start frm afresh..haha..lydia was telling me..wat will ya feel wen ya closest fren toks behind ya back.sad? i duno.if it is frm her.think normal.but i like someone to tell me straight.hai..everyone is not perfect..they will sae some stuff at times n forget it,they dun mean it i think.y they mux treat her like this.like unfair to her though she like tt..i duno.i juz wanna treasure da friendship i had wit her though we got nth much in common.i try ways to be close again but is like..nvm...she is still my good frenz..pray for her.she quite poor thing..lolx..i was telling ppl how great he is..haha
Devil vs Angel *
oh yar..todae got chinese tution wen all along i tot chinese dun nit tuition de..lucky todae last dae..but is my worst tuition ever.she is so impatient n i like restless too..dun feel like learning anything.my chinese is like so lousy..i duno simple chinese..i cant communicate wit her so i stop le.tode found out tt she came to singapore for half a year onli..haha..she is like very irritated wen she revise all my words..i noe all of dem juz last week.todae is like noe less den ten..forget completely.she say my chinese is like so...dots..haha...den sae wat no offence.sae i shld off my hp wen doing hw or studying.hai..im juz like tt..nit to change my attitude towards studying.she sae i start to drop since sec 3 is because dun have da interest in studying le.haha.duno.she like duno any sinple english.tok to her abt my future dream job as i got chinese compo to do..hai..den i duno how to speak chinese well..haha..i like even worse le..hai..
Devil vs Angel *
yeah..i complete da cross country..it was fun though i body ache for few days..haha..my mummy tell me stupid craps abt my heart pro..haha...think im juz like tt..im use to it..starting dun like wen i cant do this cant do tt..make me feel so unnormal..y cant i like other child..anyway i got use to it..duno..haha..i jux happy now...i mux treasure everything i have now.him..lolx..aft cross country go out wit him..haha.take neoprint n watch scooby doo 2...haha..notice tt i super timid wen i wit him..his fault lahz..haha..meet my frenz at heeren at 3 plus..haha..shop awhile..bought new pencil case.now like dun like it..haha.too big.comic wan..haha..still missing him..lolx...go n bathe now..my little bro laughing at some kungfu chinese show..lolx..